Garnier Ultra Doux (Avocado and Karite) hair care series review!

A quick review post for today!

Hair condition before using: normal, with slightly dry ends and oily roots. Typical?

About the shampoo: too watery, does not clean my hair good enough, gives absolutely no volume or shine, however, leaves my hair soft. Maybe it will do the work for super dry hair, but for mine...nope. NOT buying again.

About the conditioner: again, not thick enough consistency for my liking, for such a low price - it does the job, softens my hair, makes it easier to brush, has a nice scent, but all of this works if you use this conditioner...as a hair mask, by leaving it on your hair for 3-5 minutes. NOT gonna buy again.

About the mask: quite nice and buttery, works for my hair, lasts a long time, currently is my favorite budget mask. WILL most likely buy again.

Hair condition after using: didn't notice any mindblowing changes. 5/10. 

Have you ever used any of these products? Did you like them?

The body image talk.

What's with society recently? "You are too skinny, nothing to hold at", "You are too curvy, time for a diet"...
And none of these are actually aimed at people who have obvious weight problems.
Now, please, don't get me wrong, the size people wear is no way affecting my positive or negative opinion about them.
And yes, body shaming is totally wrong. Insulting people in general is wrong. Judging them is wrong.
But then there is this fine line, for us, humans, and not only women, all of us.
There are two points at this scale, and no, being an XS size or XL or between is not really a problem, you know. It's absolutely normal.
Because there are standards every medic knows about, the sizes every normal healthy, I repeat, healthy human at different age should have.
Yes, you can be healthy with curves and without them. But goddamnit, lets not cover up by the "body shaming is wrong" when you see someone, who obviously needs help. I am not saying that I will throw something like "You are a pig" or "You are anorexic" at your face, but how can I act like everything is alright when a good person, when someone I care about, is unhealthy. Do you know that it shortens your life? Do you know if it goes like this, you may possibly never have your own children? Do you know it may cause different problems with your heatlth if your weight keeps disappearing or growing?

Women in my family have the overweight problem, I know exactly all the "perks" it can give you, and you know how it all started? It started from caring relatives saying that "nothing is wrong with eating so much, you are still beautiful".
Yeah, you are still beautiful, you can't walk, you can't enjoy your life, you can't do sports or any activities, because your bones and heart can't cope anymore.

You are beautiful and screw the fact that you are dying, because we told you not to do anything to save yourself. Just go on.

I don't know, maybe it's me being straight forward in this case, but beauty has nothing to do with it, people are beautiful from the start to their end, but it doesn't mean you should mislead them, if they have any health problems. Better help them become healthy and happy, and last I checked, feeding them lies just won't do it.

P.S. I am aware, people may disagree with my opinion, it's up to them. My opinion is purely based on my (and my relatives) experience and I highly doubt, after what I've seen, I'll ever change my mind.

I apologize for the ranting and wish you all a good, successful week.

Liebster Award!

I know. I know, everyone except me has done this award tag and I know, I was nominated like bazillion years ago (in october?), but busy life + exams = no time for blogging activities.

But woop woop, here I am.

So I've been tagged by these three lovely ladies (thank you *handhearts*)

Abbeylauren from agirlcalledglasgow.co.uk
Neesha from reinventingneesha.co.uk
Kate from professionalexploreroflife.blogspot.co.uk

*awkward whisper* Check their blogs out, they are awesome

So the rules of this award/tag include:
1) Answering the questions I was sent.
2) Coming up with my own 11 questions for next nominees.
3) And actually nominating other bloggers who have under 200 followers.

Boom. Lets get started?

Questions from Abbeylauren

What products do you tend to use more in the winter?

More of makeup? Hm.

What's your favourite winter shoe and accessory?

My studded biker boots (so comfy) and my silver owl ring (owl-obsessed)

Who's your current favourite blogger and why?
Oh my, it's le-happy.com
Her style is amazing!!!

What do you find the most challenging part of blogging?
Personally for me, the most challenging part is that I am coming out of my shell, and speaking to strangers, even though it's through internet.

Your blog may be stylish, but if we saw you while you were writing blogposts - what would you be wearing?
Probably something comfy...like.. my favorite sweatshirt and pants

What is your main inspiration to blog?
Basically everything that surrounds me, but I get inspiration from tumblr and reading blogs, sometimes even from movies I watch.

What makeup and outfit combination makes you feel your most confident?
One thing I know for sure, I am most confident when I have a tiny bit of foundation on and of course, my faux leather jacket withs studs.

What is your favourite blogpost you have produced and why? Link us!
So far my favorite post is this one http://aliceinboots.blogspot.com/2014/10/things-that-confuse-me.html

Have you ever made an embarrassing style/make up faux pa? What was it?
I don't think so.. I hope... I really hope..

What's your favourite part of blogging and the community that comes with it?
I think it's...when you are writer, the best thing is the opportunity to share what you've written with people from all around this big world. If there was no blogging, I think I would invent it. Seriously.

What tip would you give to anyone starting blogging?
I am still new to blogging and there is ALOT I don't know, but one thing I am sure about - always write about topics you are interested in, don't force yourself.

And finally, why did you start your blog to begin with?
to be heard...didn't we all?

Questions from Neesha

1) When did you start your blog and why?
Few months ago, I was actually leaning towards making a youtube channel, but...too shy?

2) Are you currently in education or thinking of going back?
Still in uni. *glares at the books I have to read to prepare for my next exam*

3) If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Somewhere warm, me and winter don't get along.

4) What is your favourite clothing brand?
I would say it's Bershka at the moment, since my favorite high waisted jeans are from there.

5) What is your party trick?
My party trick is that I don't go to parties...

6) Can you speak any other languages?
I can speak Russian, Ukrainian, English and now I am studying Italian..
Awkward thing is that none of the above is my native language (which I can speak too, but I'll keep it a secret)

7) What is your favourite Make-up Brand?
I was obsessed with Maybelline like two years ago...

8) What is at the top of your bucket list?
I want a black faux leather backpack, but it's been a year and I still can't find the one that would look nice and be affordable.

9) Who is your favourite celebrity?
Probably Dylan O'Brien. He is super cute, super talented, super funny, and if you never heard of him, then...I am sorry, what planet are you from again?

10) If you could meet anyone if the world, past or present, who would it be and why?
Can I meet my future self?

11) Where would you like to see your blog in a years time?
It's kind of scary to think of what may happen with this blog in future, but I want it to stay and grow...hopefully.

Questions from Kate

1. Where is one place in the world that you are desperate to go to?

London. Please.

2.  If you could only use one makeup brand, which would you choose?

The best one?.... Probably MAC.

3. What is one lip product that you could use for the rest of your life.

Tinted lip balms are life.

4. You can create one ice cream flavour, what will you design?

It will contain chocolate...lots of chocolate...

5. What's that one song that always puts you in a good mood?

Right now it's Meghan Trainor - All About That Bass

6. Which beauty routine to you dread the most?

None...I think.

7. Do you prefer to use powder, pencil, gel or all three for your brows?

I've used powder before and didn't really like it, now I use a pencil, but not always, I have pretty think brows that don't need much definition.

8. What is a skill or talent that you wish you had?

I wish I could sing... I like my voice but when it comes to singing, I fail.

9. Summer, Autumn, Winter or Spring?

Endless summer, please.

10. What would be your dream brand collaboration be? What would your line include?

My dream is to work with Cropp. They have really nice street style clothes, with great quality and low prices. Every time I walk into that store, I just look around in awe and I want to buy everything. I am pretty sure my line would include some t-shirts with fun quotes/prints from popular movies and TV shows and super fun caps.

11. Which celebrity do you wish you could be besties with?

Probably Lucy Hale... I like her style?

Now time for my questions!

1. Name your most favorite book and one that you don't like at all.

2. Any obsessions?

3. If you were asked to use only one lipstick color for the rest of your life, which one would you choose?

4. Do you have any pets?

5. Name the most annoying thing ever, in your opinion.

6. Straight hair or curly?

7.  Favorite TV show?

8. If you could get a unicorn or money as a gift this Christmas, which one you would go with?

8.  Favorite nailpolish brand?

9. List top three blog favorites of yours.

10. Describe yourself in three words.

11.  Would you start a fashion brand of your own if you had a chance?

And finally on who I nominate... Honestly this was an impossible task... It seems like everyone has done this tag already, some even refuse to do any tags, and since I am still new to blogoverse and don't want to annoy anyone.. o_o.... I'll just say I tag whoever reads this post, if you read it - congratulations, you've been nominated by me! xx

Am I an Introvert?

I've been thinking about letting this post "flow into the sea of blogoverse" for a while, but it was too serious random weird deep  much for speaking it out loud, until recently I thought "What the heck, it's not something to be ashamed of".

So here I am. As you can see by the title, it's gonna be tough one. I mean, it's not like I doubt the fact that I am an introvert, no, I am pretty sure it is true, but what I am not sure if it is the state of...mind I always was in, since the beginning.

I guess I became an introvert, somewhere in middle school. I don't remember much from my early childhood years, but according to my parents I was much more content and social than I am now, and everything changed through my teenage years when I had to change schools, and things in new school didn't go well.

Nowadays, I can just name the things as they really are, without getting emotinal. So, yes, I was bullied in middle and high school, probably all years except senior one, since everyone been finally more interested in better grades and getting accepted to a college, than in bullying a girl they didn't like. And even though I am over that stuff, and no longer having these people in my life, I still wonder, what if my school years were different?

Would I be a different person? I think I would. All I am trying to say is that even though I trained myself to never depend on others, never open up or show emotion, even though I am fine with spending days alone and doing everything on my own, sometimes I want it to change. All these things I've mentioned about my personality, they may look cool, but in reality, it kinda sucks.

Because sometimes you gotta open to people and let them in, sometimes you gotta trust them and accept their help and show that you care, but I shut it all off. So now I really wonder, is it really me being an introvert or me being mentally scarred?

This post is by no means a way to make you feel sorry for me. No.

It's a shoutout to all of you, who feel uncomfortable on public.
For those, who feel too shy to make friends or flirt.
For those, who are afraid of being laughed at.
For those, who've ever been betrayed by people they trusted, so now they don't give others a chance.
I feel ya there, and if you, the person reading my post, find yourself related to this topic, then you are not alone, there is at least two of us now.

I just wish people would realize how strong their impact on others can be, and that the actions of one single person can change so much. But the saddest thing is you never learn what pain is until you are hurt. You can't make them understand how much you suffer, unless they experience the exact same pain they caused to others. See the irony?

Schauma Fresh It Up! Shampoo Review

What does it claim to do: basically to keep your roots fresh and less oily and for the tips of your hair to become less dry. If you want to find out more about this product from their official site, click here.

Hair condition before using this shampoo:
NOT dyed aka natural color, medium length.
Hair type - normal to oily, with slightly dry tips and more oily roots. I wash my hair every other day, sometimes 2.

Testing time: 4 weeks, the bottle completely emptied.

Actual testing experience: Not gonna lie, when I first seen this bottle, I was like "OMG so cute", because it's so girly and definitely catches one's attention. Next, I was surprised after reading what this shampoo claims to do, because to me, you can't create something that will dry your roots and soften your hair tips at the same time. But since no other shampoo looked appealing enough, and I had to buy one that day to simply have something to wash my hair with, I gave this one a try.
First of all, I loved the smell, it's fresh, and kinda all spring/summer time-ish to me. It also did wash my hair good enough. After two weeks I was surprised to admit that my hair indeed stays fresh for much longer time, woah. BUT. I've, of course, used conditioner or a hair mask with it, and if I wouldn't use them, but only this shampoo instead, yes, it would dry my hair. Not super dry, believe me I tested shampoos, that were drying life out of my hair and this is not one from that category. However, I think, this shampoo would be good for people with more oily hair, or for those, who, just like me, use other hair products to soften their hair.

Hair condition after using this shampoo: much fresher look + shine and nice scent.

Do I recommend this product and will I buy it again? Yes, but not to people with originally dyed or dry hair and yes, I will most likely buy it again. xx

BOOK Review: The Break-Up Artist by Philip Siegel

This one was an easy read. I wanted something light and humorous, and that's exactly what I got.

However, if you prefer books with deep meaning and logical plot, then pass by, this book is absolute nonsense most of the time.

I mean...look at the name, whaaaat.

I really liked the whole idea. The whole "I am gonna finally read a book that isn't about undying love and sloppy kisses everywhere". But oh my, how much I hated the whole fictional world of it in the end.

What I disliked and why:

1. Becca, a teenage girl, the actual break-up artist, claims to be all "no love = no problems", yet all she does and talks and thinks, is somehow revolving around love, relationships, couples, and etc. Later on, she manages to fall for her bestfriend's boyfriend (yeah, screw the girl code). Also is a little obsessed with her ex best friend. Prepare to hear her rumblings about "I hate her, she stopped talking to me one day, and I still can't get over it". And I don't think the fact that your friend spends her time with her boyfriend can be a reason to start splitting all the couples in your school up. 

2. Becca's sister. Another hater of everything couple-ish, because a year ago she was dumped by her fiancee. Her moody ways will annoy you so much, that you may mentally scream "Shut up" every time she talks.

3. Female characters in general, so thirsty, so bitchy, so typical. Apparently author thinks that all women talk about is shopping and men and gossips about other women.

No other topics? Seriously? Not even homework? Movies? Favorite books?

It's fucking high school, some of us, actually most of us, don't have a boyfriend/girlfriend, and WE ARE OKAY ABOUT IT.

4. Male characters. No gentlemen here, no cute boys, no NORMAL boys. Nada.

5. Friendships. The whole "I got a boyfriend, so I don't need my best friend now, because my time and my attention fully belongs to my lover"

6. Gossips. I, personally, never gossip, and if someone tries to involve me in a conversation that consists of gossips and dirty rumours, I refuse to join. So the fact, that this book was full of gossips and stupidity, it annoyed me big time.

I was supposed to rate this book...um... 2/10. 

And  

No plans for Halloween?

So I have a confession to make - there was only one time I went to a Halloween party, and it was back in high school days of my life.

And yes, all the rest of Halloween nights I spent in my pjs, resting after long day or even studying for an exam (yeah, total nerdiness).

It's not that I don't like the idea of Halloween, I do love it, but it is not so popular where I live, and people don't really celebrate it every year.

Back in high school, my classmates used to gather after classes for some fortune-telling (we even had a book with those) - not in a serious way, of course, mostly for laughs. Once we even dared to use ouija board instead.

Then we would pick a horror movie to watch - mostly one from newest releases, and of course, few episodes of Supernatural, as the grande finale of our meeting. And that was it.

Not a typical way to celebrate it, I guess, but it works for me.. and I am wondering if there is anyone else picking a night in, with bunch of yummy things to eat and scary movies today? I kinda feel halloween-less at the moment:/. xx

Lets talk... about writer's block

If you are, like me, really into writing stories of your own (and, yes, blog posts are somewhat mini stories too), then you probably know the monster all writers are afraid of - writer's block. 

Personally I don't suffer from it much, now that I think about it, because I am always writing or thinking of writing something, but also it is not always the thing I would want to work on. Sounds crazy and stupid, but let me explain how it works.

So I come up with a story. I imagine characters, relationships between them, the epic finale, the main antagonist, and I fall in love with this story. I am hyper, I am excited, I grab a paper and write down few chapters in one day, yet already imagining how I turn this story of mine into a book.

But then the hype just poofs. Plans like "I am gonna write one chapter a day" never come to life, and when I try to think of the plot, it feels like someone evil turned my mind off. And instead of coming up with what happens in the next chapter, my brain creates yet another story. Like whyyyyyyy. I already love this one, brain, why can't we just finish it first?

See what happens? Basically there is no such thing as writer's block. It's either:

1. You are too tired/stressed/distracted. (Then just get some rest, solve your problems, wait till life is less hectic)

2. The story you were working on, does not hold your interest currently. Now in this situation, don't force yourself. If you are writing about romance, but your mind gives you ideas for horror story, then just go for it, you will come back to the one you were creating later. Get a notebook to write all the ideas down, who knows which one you will be compliting in the end? Plus, trying yourself in different genres is never bad, you know.

Do you have any tips on surviving writer's block?

P.S. I know I've been neglecting all the award nomination mentions sent to me, but it's my first time being nominated and I want these posts to be as good as possible, so writing them takes more time... They will be posted this week, I promise, and thanks to everyone who nominated  me through blog and twitter! xx 

Girl And Headphones: mini review

Greetings, blogverse! Today I bring you not a typical girly post, however, I believe that if you were to think what's the thing that almost every girl uses these days (despite makeup preferences, age, personal style and etc.), that would be earphones.

Not ashamed to admit, I can live without makeup and cute clothes, but living without this gadget is like a hell for me. I use headphones pretty much every day (music is my best friend) and normally they last me a long time, from 6 months to one year.

My beloved pink headphones from Pioneer lasted for about a year, and they were amazing quality, with a nice (I think) price (I got them for around 15$ last year). So when they suddenly broke (not on their own, it was completely my fault), I was super sad. I would totally repurchase them, but turned out their price went up, and I didn't want to spend that much money, especially seeing much cheaper headphones from other brands.

When it comes to headphones, me, or excuse me, my ears.. are super picky. Playing music is not enough for me, I have to hear all the tones, all the lyrics and voice properly (with a little bit of bass preferably) and there must be no foreign noises, that might hurt my hearing. So the journey of searching for perfect earphones...ended after 3 months! Looking around and seeing people listening music (in public transport, for example) got me like "To hell with it, I will just buy random headphones today, end of" and after morning classes, I run to a nearest store.

AND found these cuties, Philips SHE3590LB. I tested them in a store, and fell in love. Price was around 9$.
They are so nice, feminine looking, and with a clear sound (most important), that you just can't dislike them. So if you are looking for new headphones, definitely check these out.

Also let me know if you would like to see more of headphones reviews, I've used different ones, and I will be happy to help you out. xx

BEAUTY Review: L'Oreal False Lash Papillon mascara

Previously I've already tried another mascara from L'Oreal, and that was the Telescopic one (in golden tube), I think that was my first mascara ever and I really loved it. But since I like trying out new mascaras, this time (after years of using mascaras from other brands) I decided to return my attention to L'Oreal and buy this one.

First impression: I will be honest, it was bad. Like, so bad. Firstly I felt like it was too watery, didn't define my eyelashes, didn't curl them and looked all kind weird.

Later: I decided to try figuring out a way to apply this mascara. The brush was pretty fine to work with and the product inside dried a little bit after a week of using, it kinda started looking better on my lashes.

BUT.

It made my eyes red after few hours of being on.
To apply this and achieve the "butterfly wings" aka make my eyelashes look the way I wanted to - defined and full (yet still clumpy a little), I had to spend like 2-3 coats and 30 minutes!
Side note: I don't claim myself a mascara applying pro, but previously I've tested more than 20 different mascaras and none of them was that hard to cooperate with.

AND ON TOP OF THAT...

It got dry after like... 3 months, and I didn't use every single day, just so you know. And as it got dry, now after applying I would get black dots all over my undereye area and even on my cheeks.

Honestly, I was relieved when I bought another mascara and now that I created this review, I can happily throw this one away.

Never again. AS FOR RATE, 1/5.

P.S. I believe, there are girls out there, who love this mascara and find it working, but honestly, for its price, we should've gotten a product with much better quality.

Send me your opinions about this mascara, I am curious. xx

Things That Confuse Me

I am sorry, I just don't get it when...

1. When people stare you. Like, without blinking or showing any emotion, and since I am 90% sure I look normal, I start thinking that they've got some creep gene working in their mind at that moment. Just....stop it.

2. When you are single and all on your own, walking somewhere outside and passing by a couple, and when they see you, they start INTENSIVELY kissing each other. Why are you shoving your happiness down my throat, I ain't even interested in neither of you?

3. When someone says something like "Oh my God, I am fat". You want me to deny that and lie to your face or admit it and ruin our friendly vibe? If your body doesn't look the way you want to, do something for it. And if I am talking to you, it means your weight doesn't bother me and I like you for your personality.

4. When guys don't make the first step. Or any step at all. I am sorry, since when you turned into Rapunzel? I will make a step forward, but don't expect me to climb all the way up to rescue you. I am the one, who is supposed to be acting like a damn Disney princess, after all.

5. When you start a new book and there is a love triangle of two super hot guys falling for a girl, who herself, claims to be "boring, ugly and by no means attractive to any of male population".

...sorry, Bella.

6. When you can see that someone is mad at you, but they just won't say why. ...Okay?

7. When you buy chips, and 80% of the package is air.

    (yeah you can tell I was a little pissed off while working on this post...xx)

My first ever wishlist!

Hey everyone! As you can see by the title of this post, today I am showing you my first ever wishlist and it's fully Zara, aka the shop I am slowly, but surely falling in love with. The items I picked are completely random, just pieces that I saw on their site and wish to have, so they can't really be gathered all in one look/outfit (I guess)! 

Did you like any of those (or maybe own something from this wishlist already)? xx

Antishopaholic tips

Ever felt like

 

Or like 

then this post is specially for you.

Lets be honest, as much as we claim that "money doesn't buy happiness", money still can buy us things, that make life easier, and lets say more cheerful.

And saddly some us, most of us, aren't rich enough to have things they want. 

Especially while being a student, I am telling you, it's so hard to be on a budget ban or spend all the money you save on boring necessary stuff, instead of buying a new dress or lipstick, that sometimes I just wanna scream "unfair".

And being surrounded by spoiled rich kids at uni doesn't make it any better.

So, tip 1. Buy the necessary stuff first. Lets be honest, you can survive without new nail polish, but you certainly can't refuse to repurchase your shampoo, if the previous bottle is now empty. I would rather have clean hair, thanks. 

Tip 2. Clean up your wardrobe and makeup storage. Give all the stuff you don't use away, sell it, just get rid of it, so you don't see it every day. Then look through all stuff you actually use and write down all the basic things you own. This will help you to see what you really needed all this time, and instead of buying 3 new mascaras, you could save the money for new jeans (especially if yours are old now) or a new warm coat for winter time.

Tip 3. Now that you figured what you need to buy, for example, new coat, then sit down and think it over. What color will go with your personal style and clothes you own? Does it have to be with a hood or not? Write down all the important details. If you have no idea what is trendy this season, go for classics. Check out few online stores to see what they offer for this season.

Tip 4. Offline shopping over online shopping. Even if you are 200% sure that coat gonna fit you well, TRY IT on. There is still 50% chance that the clothing item you just fell for, doesn't look good enough ON YOU.

Tip 5. So, you go to the mall, and oh my God, so many cute stuff there and you get lost, confused and upset, because not enough money to buy it all.

Remember that 

so sorry, honey, but put that cute pumpkin scented candle down and get back to the main point. Aka you don't want to freeze your butt off, because you spent all money on 16573276436436th bottle of shower gel.

Tip 6. Remember you wrote down how you imagine your dream coat? Now compare it with the ones you see in stores and pick a winner. Tada.

Tip 7. Don't hunt brands. I assure you, cheap is not always bad. 

Tip 8. If you see something like a basic shirt on a big sale, try to get it. Check the sales for things YOU NEED, not just for the sake of buying something because it has 70% off.

Tip 9. It's okay to be picky. You should be. But, sometimes, no matter how picky you are, you just fall in love with that cute pair of shoes...and that jacket...and that adorable blouse...and it's okay. But you can live without it, so pay for that damn coat and walk out of that store. QUICK.

And lastly, if after all that struggle, you come home like 

                                then congratulations, you are doing it right! xx

Monday Mood Helper

Lets just start with admitting, that I don't really hate Mondays, unlike some people. Mondays are usually either really busy for me or completely free, and I either drop on my bed and fall asleep next minute or settle there with a cup of tea and new book (sometimes I pick a movie to watch instead).

I do, however, have a list of things that make my mood better, so thought, I would share it with you all.

Food & drinks

1. Black chocolate, all time favorite of mine.

2. A cup of  irish cream flavoured latte.

3. Cheese. Because...well, it's cheese.

4. Pizza (no comments necessary)

5. Green tea.

Movies

1. White Chicks (if I am super pissed off or sad)

2. Harry Potter series (HP fan for life)

3. The Princess Diaries (too girly, I know)

4. X-Men (makes me feel like a superhero)

5. The Internship (recent favorite)

Songs

1. BonJovi - It's My Life

2. Lucy Hale - You Sound Good To Me

3. Katy Perry - Hot' N' Cold

4. George Ezra - Budapest

5. Kelly Clarkson - Stronger

Let me know if you like any of these too, or just send me your tips on fighting bad mood! 

P. S. Over 100 followers on Bloglovin, wow there! Thank you all so much! xx

Advice from a bullied girl

I never liked autumn. Autumn meant school, and school meant spending another nine months with people, who disliked me.
And not like I could do anything about it.
At age 10, I have faced one of typical teenage dramas - changing schools, since I moved away with my family.

To be honest, whole "what if noone likes me" and bla bla, never bothered me. It's not that I had a huge ego and thought that it was impossible to dislike me, I just really believed people would treat me the way I would treat them.

Oh how wrong I was.

For a while, I did not know what to do with that situation, with all the hate and witty remarks I was receiving. Telling my teachers sounded wrong and parents only brushed me away with "it will stop eventually, when you all go to high school".

Then it was "it will stop, after you graduate, because you guys gonna grow up and get over silly childish arguements".

What a bullshit.

If there is one thing I learnt in these 22 years of my life, it's that people will always judge you. It's impossible to grow out of being a complete asshole if you were born with it.  

People will judge you for the way you breathe, talk, carry yourself, for things you eat, wear and do, and the best damn thing to do is to ignore them.

It's in our nature. The less we know about something, the quickier we are to judge it. Don't let ignorant people ruin your life, only because they don't get what you are doing (unless it's something illegal...then you should stop).

Do what's best for you and hold onto people, who support you.

You want to dye your hair green? Go for it.
Want to jump with a parachute? Why the hell not.
Wanna make a blog or youtube channel? Just do it!
I am here and I support you right now, so go go go!

This life is yours, and you, only you are responsible for the memories you fill it with, so as long as you can, dare to be yourself, dare to be original. xx

Changes.

A small happy announcement - my blog has a new design! Yaaaaaaaaaay. All tweaked by me, hehe. I wasn't pleased with the old design, it was cute, but didn't suit my blog well, in my opinion. 

Do you like my blog's new design? (Any feedback is welcome, as I am trying to make my blog user friendly and clean looking.) xx

BOOK Review: This Is What Happy Looks Like by Jennifer E. Smith

This is what Confusion with capital C looks like, guys.
Firstly, a boy and a girl meet online, because he sends his message to a wrong email. So they start talking. Just like that randomly.
Confusion 1: Why they both believe each other so blindly? I mean, hello, this is internet, you don't know this person, they may say whatever they want, there is still no proof that they are a teenage boy/girl.
What if it's a maniac?
What if it's a teenager with maniacal skills even?

Secondly, the boy, Graham, who happens to be a new young rising star of Hollywood, decides to just go meet the girl he met through email talking AND ASK HER OUT.
And he actually does tho, you know.

Confusion 2: Graham claims that girls who surround him are fake and bla bla and only want to talk to him due to his popularity.
That's too much of a cliche. I mean, okay, some popular females may be bitches, but really, I don't believe ALL the actors/actresses have bad personality. Seriously, they are just people.

Thirdly, Graham shows up at Ellie's work place, being all like

And ends up asking out the wrong girl.

Confusion 3: I am sorry, what? You think it's Ellie, because that's what written on her shirt? You don't ask her anything? Don't give a hint of who you are? Ah-mazingly dumb.

Next, I really thought they would figure out who is who way later, but everything in this book went too fast for my liking.

And then this sudden "I am senator's daughter and I don't want people to know about it, even though they already do and me dating a superstar will only make things worse for me and my father's reputation."  a) I don't get what is your problem; b) Your father doesn't care about you anyway, girl, he doesn't even recognize you.

Confusion 4: This girl I met online is so cute, that I might as well give her money she needs for going to college.

Brilliant, Graham. That is what we do for people we met like...2 days ago.

You know, I would love this book, if I came across it when I was 14-15 and my reality check button was almost always off. But right now... It was fun while it lasted, even with all the stupid moments. Ellie and Graham have a potential to become a really cute couple and keyword is "become", as I don't believe they could fall deeply in love with each other afters just few conversations and a kiss.

But.

Confusion 5: What is with this weird finale? Are they going to be together or not? 

Ugh. Too fast. Too weird. Too confusing. 6/10.

Let it go.

I know, I've been away for about a week, so, sorry for that and yes, I am back with a new post.
If anyone been waiting for new style posts or book reviews, I am sorry again, since it's not what I am wishing to discuss today. (However, I have few beauty and book reviews in process, so stay tuned))
Lets just talk about things... Things, that sometimes don't go the way we want them to.
...When I was 8, my biggest dream was to have a cat. Don't ask me why I wouldn't settle with having any other pet, I guess, I am just that much of a cat lover.
So one day, I found a pretty little kitty in our garden. It was small and fluffy and dark grey like asphault after raining. The kitten kept leaving and coming back everyday, since there was always some food left for it, until the day when I figured I should just catch and bring it home. And so I did.
I was happy, really happy. I think it was one of these rare moments when you are not just content with what you received, but undeniably happy because you got something rare and so perfect, which you never thought you would own.
Long story short, the poor kitty wasn't happy at all. It kept meowing and hiding from everyone, until I told my parents to just let it go.

I know, some people say you should fight for things or people you love and others claim that "your thing will eventually find you and it will be just yours", but maybe... maybe.

Maybe you should just let it go.

Because some things aren't meant to happen.
Some things will most likely never happen.
Some things will end up being different from what you thought they were.

Some things just don't go the way you wish.

And it's okay.

Sometimes something silly seems like a big deal and it upsets you, and it's okay too.

It's life.

If it was all glitter and rainbows, it would be boring. The whole point is that whenever something bad or unpleasant happens, and you feel down, you should remind yourself that you are nowhere near the finale of your story and your happy ending is yet to come.

Sometimes, dreams don't come true and you shouldn't fixate on them only. Trust me, there still will be millions of moments when you will feel happy. Even if your life didn't go the way it was planned. And you will smile, you will enjoy your time, despite all the stuff that you once wished to happen, but it never happened, you will be happy.

Sometimes it's okay to just let it go. xx

Rock' N' Doll

Hey everyone!

 This post was complete surprise. I was about to show you something quite different from this, but I guess, that's what happens when you roam online stores out of boredom)) I am both proud of myself and scared, as this is my first ever style post like this and these two outfits are what I would want to wear today if I could (and due to the weather). I really hope they inspire you!

Let me know if you liked any of my style picks? 

P.S. All the clothing and accessories are from New Look. xx

The TMI tag!

A small side note before we get to the fun part of this post: I've never done any tag before, but always wanted to...So if this goes awkward, I am so sorry, I am hyper due to coffee and two mini chocolate muffins! Eh. Now to the questions!

1. What are you wearing?

Simple black leggings and black sweatshirt, because I am sick and spent all day at home...

2. Ever been in love?

No.

3. Ever had a terrible break up?

No.

4. How tall are you? 

1.60m. 

5. How much do you weigh?

I don't know now, since I lost some weight this year, but whatever the number is, I am very much satisfied with my body's shape and size.

6. Any tattoos? 

NO.

7. Any piercings? 

Do regular ear ones count?

8. OTP?

Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood from The Mortal Instruments series. 

Emma Swan and Captain Hook from Once Upon A Time.

Hanna Marin and Caleb Rivers from Pretty Little Liars.

9. Favorite show?

Teen Wolf, Pretty Little Liars and Once Upon A Time.

10. Favorite bands?

Florence and The Machine, The Script, OneRepublic.

11. Favorite song?

Alex Hepburn - Under

Florence and The Machine - Never Let Me Go

OneRepublic - Burning Bridges

12. How old are you?

22. 

13. Zodiac sign? 

Leo. Raaaaawr.

14. Loud music or soft?

Forever stuck in the middle.

15. Last book you read?

Actually reread.. The Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clare.

16. The book you are currently reading?

Maybe Someday by Colleen Hoover.

17. Favorite food?

PIZZA.

18. Last time you were insulted?

About a week ago and I hope that fucker trips and drops his butt on a big cactus.

19.  Places you want to visit?

London. And spending summer vacation on a beautiful tropical island would be good too.

20. Why did you start blogging?

I've been thinking of making a blog for about a year, since I really enjoyed reading blogs and watching youtube beauty channels and ever since I made this one, I realized I found myself a favorite hobby.

21. Who should answer these questions next?

Everyone, so I get more TMI tags to read. (is slightly obsessed, ok.)

As you can see I skipped some questions, since I couldn't really answer them...weird, I know. Anyway, enjoy my new awkward post xx

BOOK Review: The Broken Destiny by Carlyle Labuschagne

Greetings, internet! I am finally back, with (of course, what else a nerd like me would do with her free time, other than read) a new book review for all of you lovely booklovers.
So where to start...
When I first saw it (I read this one in epub version), I fell in love with the cover. It's like a shiny neon casino sign, alluring you to get inside. And yes, it fooled me. When I checked the annotation, it had me a bit confused, BUT sometimes great books have such badly written annotations and prologues, so I will be honest, I almost always skip those and get straight to the point aka first chapter.
And what did I see?
I felt like I went down the rabbit hole and the story didn't even start properly yet. I swear, some parts I reread 3 times or so to get any kind of proper introduction but the information was so not enough, ugh. Also it felt like I just awakened after 20 years coma and the world around changed alot BUT AUTHOR IS NOT WILLING TO GIVE ANY IMPORTANT DETAILS. Are you serious? I can't read your mind and find out what I need to make my first impression puzzle complete.

Next, the main character, Ava, who obviously lives on another planet, called Poseidon (why even Poseidon?), at first appears to be just a teenage girl, who suffers from rough past/memories haunting her, with best friend always at her side. And these two were so intimately close, that I truly believed Ava was lesbian. And you know, I would be more satisfied if she really was, at least it would make more sense, since the scenes and dialogues Ava and her friend share are much more romantic than the ones she ever had with her crushes (little spoiler, sorry).
Also, oh my God, the conversations. Is there a "Noone is allowed to spell more than 20 words in one reply" law on Poseidon? Because all of the conversations are short. Super. Short. And that's pretty bad, because I, personally, love funny banters or monologues or dialogues between characters, these kind of interactions describe them better than anything.
And yeah, seen no humour there either. Sad.
Another thing, was whole Ava's personality. According to this book, here are three most important things I found out about her:
1. She is some kind of a special soul aka broken, and she is the greatest weapon ever created. Baiscally like a superwoman not knowing how to activate or control her power when needed. And she gives absolutely no shit about it. Really. She doesn't care.
2. She was once raped and then there are some scenes where she is almost (or not, I didn't quite understand) raped again. Very specific topic, I must say, and not everyone can write a character with such past well...I mean, realistic enough.
3. Surprisingly, Ava, having so much potential and power and her rough past, doesn't do anything. She only FAINTS or FALLS ASLEEP, in the end of almost EVERY CHAPTER.
...can you not...
This is the first character I absolutely despised. Not even she is weak and whiny, but also so dumb and selfish, that I would rather let her die.
Alright, she doesn't accept she is the choosen one, but can she, at least, for once get angry, unleash her super power, learn to control it and do something for people, who try so hard to make her life comfortable?
Speaking of story whole (I am trying to make this review short, but irritated), it gave me headache. I read a chapter, then went back, then forward again....leaved it for days to clear my head...and how happy I was when I finally finished this mental torture.
You are probably wondering why I did not give on it and delete...
The reason is that the author of these book series is talented. I can see that through pages of this nonsense, little sparks here and there like treasures, hidden in these chapters, but they are so rare, so tiny, that I give up on searching for them. Whoever wrote this, I honestly think, they wasted their talent and time creating this story, and they can do much MUCH better than this.

As for rating, I give it only 3/10.

Is honesty a virtue?

If someone asked me this question a year or two ago, I would be all like "YES, yes it is." I  strongly believed that being 100% honest was the right way to live my life. I would tell the truth without hiding anything, anytime...everytime.
During these last two years that I lived by my honesty rule, I've met many people online and offline, they were different, and you know what... not all of them really needed my blunt truth.
...Honesty can be awkward. I mean, I am positive, people would gladly want to get to know more of  you, but it does not mean you must share all the intimate secrets with them. Some thoughts must remain unspoken, unless you want to get a weirdo award.

...Honesty can be a great friendship destroyer. There is this fine line between being a total bitch and wanting to be sincere or helpful. Remember that you always balance in the middle.

...Honesty can be tiring. Trust me, everyone gets tired of constantly hearing that they suck. Because the real help is not just pointing fingers at someone's mistake, but trying to, at least, motivate them to work things out. 

...Honesty can be difficult. Sometimes, it is easier to make up a great lie, other than admit the truth and speak it out loud. But what is important to know, is that the truth always comes out. The best thing we can do, is to let it out ourselves.

...Honesty can be a virtue. At some point. But it also can ruin us. 

But ask yourself, would you rather be ruined by harsh honesty or by sweet lies?

And after which one would you recover faster?

Honesty is not a virtue. It is the right choice, and just like every choices we make it has its flaws. xx