BOOK Review: The Broken Destiny by Carlyle Labuschagne

Greetings, internet! I am finally back, with (of course, what else a nerd like me would do with her free time, other than read) a new book review for all of you lovely booklovers.
So where to start...
When I first saw it (I read this one in epub version), I fell in love with the cover. It's like a shiny neon casino sign, alluring you to get inside. And yes, it fooled me. When I checked the annotation, it had me a bit confused, BUT sometimes great books have such badly written annotations and prologues, so I will be honest, I almost always skip those and get straight to the point aka first chapter.
And what did I see?
I felt like I went down the rabbit hole and the story didn't even start properly yet. I swear, some parts I reread 3 times or so to get any kind of proper introduction but the information was so not enough, ugh. Also it felt like I just awakened after 20 years coma and the world around changed alot BUT AUTHOR IS NOT WILLING TO GIVE ANY IMPORTANT DETAILS. Are you serious? I can't read your mind and find out what I need to make my first impression puzzle complete.

Next, the main character, Ava, who obviously lives on another planet, called Poseidon (why even Poseidon?), at first appears to be just a teenage girl, who suffers from rough past/memories haunting her, with best friend always at her side. And these two were so intimately close, that I truly believed Ava was lesbian. And you know, I would be more satisfied if she really was, at least it would make more sense, since the scenes and dialogues Ava and her friend share are much more romantic than the ones she ever had with her crushes (little spoiler, sorry).
Also, oh my God, the conversations. Is there a "Noone is allowed to spell more than 20 words in one reply" law on Poseidon? Because all of the conversations are short. Super. Short. And that's pretty bad, because I, personally, love funny banters or monologues or dialogues between characters, these kind of interactions describe them better than anything.
And yeah, seen no humour there either. Sad.
Another thing, was whole Ava's personality. According to this book, here are three most important things I found out about her:
1. She is some kind of a special soul aka broken, and she is the greatest weapon ever created. Baiscally like a superwoman not knowing how to activate or control her power when needed. And she gives absolutely no shit about it. Really. She doesn't care.
2. She was once raped and then there are some scenes where she is almost (or not, I didn't quite understand) raped again. Very specific topic, I must say, and not everyone can write a character with such past well...I mean, realistic enough.
3. Surprisingly, Ava, having so much potential and power and her rough past, doesn't do anything. She only FAINTS or FALLS ASLEEP, in the end of almost EVERY CHAPTER.
...can you not...
This is the first character I absolutely despised. Not even she is weak and whiny, but also so dumb and selfish, that I would rather let her die.
Alright, she doesn't accept she is the choosen one, but can she, at least, for once get angry, unleash her super power, learn to control it and do something for people, who try so hard to make her life comfortable?
Speaking of story whole (I am trying to make this review short, but irritated), it gave me headache. I read a chapter, then went back, then forward again....leaved it for days to clear my head...and how happy I was when I finally finished this mental torture.
You are probably wondering why I did not give on it and delete...
The reason is that the author of these book series is talented. I can see that through pages of this nonsense, little sparks here and there like treasures, hidden in these chapters, but they are so rare, so tiny, that I give up on searching for them. Whoever wrote this, I honestly think, they wasted their talent and time creating this story, and they can do much MUCH better than this.

As for rating, I give it only 3/10.

Is honesty a virtue?

If someone asked me this question a year or two ago, I would be all like "YES, yes it is." I  strongly believed that being 100% honest was the right way to live my life. I would tell the truth without hiding anything, anytime...everytime.
During these last two years that I lived by my honesty rule, I've met many people online and offline, they were different, and you know what... not all of them really needed my blunt truth.
...Honesty can be awkward. I mean, I am positive, people would gladly want to get to know more of  you, but it does not mean you must share all the intimate secrets with them. Some thoughts must remain unspoken, unless you want to get a weirdo award.

...Honesty can be a great friendship destroyer. There is this fine line between being a total bitch and wanting to be sincere or helpful. Remember that you always balance in the middle.

...Honesty can be tiring. Trust me, everyone gets tired of constantly hearing that they suck. Because the real help is not just pointing fingers at someone's mistake, but trying to, at least, motivate them to work things out. 

...Honesty can be difficult. Sometimes, it is easier to make up a great lie, other than admit the truth and speak it out loud. But what is important to know, is that the truth always comes out. The best thing we can do, is to let it out ourselves.

...Honesty can be a virtue. At some point. But it also can ruin us. 

But ask yourself, would you rather be ruined by harsh honesty or by sweet lies?

And after which one would you recover faster?

Honesty is not a virtue. It is the right choice, and just like every choices we make it has its flaws. xx

BOOK Review: The Espressologist by Kristina Springer

Do you ever feel like you are tired of these never ending apocalyptic love stories, full of super powers and unexistent creatures, with dramatic cliff hangers and emotional rollercoaster going till the final chapter? I do.
Sometimes, I want to read something, that is more "down to earth", especially when going through writer's block or simply being in a bad mood.
One day, when I was feeling like that, I came across this book. It was probably about 5 or even more months ago, but the positive feeling it gave me is still there. I will probably end up rereading it again sometimes soon, just to get some inspiration.
This story is a pure light. It's one of these rare plots that contain no real sadness, something you smile at, from the page one till the very end. I don't want to describe more, because anything I want to say, can be a great spoiler and I want you to open this book without knowing what to expect. Just know that it's deliciously good in my opinion and you will most likely end being a coffee fan after reading it.
If you want to know more about it or the author, just click on the pic above. As for now, I give this one 9/10.

P.S. Kinda spoilerish, but eh, for those, who read this book already: let me know which coffee do you think describes your personality and why?

Another P.S. I am definitely a chocolate latte or something like that. Haha xx

BOOK Review: Beware of Bad Boy by April Brookshire

Finished reading this one yesterday night, only to find out that it's the first book out of three in the Beware of Bad Boy series...
I try not to involve myself with book series... because, okay, I am impatient. If I read a story, I WANT to know how it ends and, I can't last waiting years for it.
Angry bookworm mode.
That aside, lets talk about this book now. I found it quite readable, though the humor (yes, I like characters, that have a good sense of humor) wasn't one for my liking. It was also a bit disturbing trying to follow the main plot through all these teasing and nearly sexual scenes (they are like in every chapter), but I got to the finale and no, I don't regret reading this book.
Except...I don't want to read what happens next either. This could be transformed into a beautiful ya romance book, with keeping these three dots in the end as "they ran away and lived happily ever after". It could all fit into one single book and be amazing to read. BUT NO, lets make it 3! *still on angry bookworm mode*
As for the characters, I felt like all attention was given to the main couple and the rest are just...you know, like a furniture. Poorly written, some even pointless (in my opinion), some I know absolutely nothing about, still.

The finale (as the most of this book) was so predictable, that...cliche much. All summed, I would give this one 5/10.

Confession

When I was a kid, I had no friends.

My mother did not approve of me 'socializing' with kids, who lived nearby and through years, when I asked her why she wouldn't let me play with other children, she always used to reply "You were weak".

I've never been a problematic child, nor did I have any problems with my health. I never understood why she would call me weak.

But now I do.

Once though, she letted me go play outside with that group of girls. They all seemed friendly, but I was new, so I felt the distance between me and them, even when we all played one game. Maybe, it would fade if I managed to stick around any longer and they would start trusting me more, if only. I remember, they turned all mean to me, out of the sudden, and it was literally the first time someone would say something rude to me and about me with absolutely no reason, and I had no idea how to answer to that. I felt bad, but I also realizied I would never use their own weapon against them. I just couldn't say anything rude about a person I barely knew and I did not want to anyway.

I just couldn't be mean.

I went home that day and never talked to those girls again. I never tried to befriend anyone ever since that day.

I still remained friendly. It's something you hardly get rid of, you know, so when I went to school, I was nice to everyone in my class. I guess that's why I wasn't considered a loser with no friends.

I was that girl, who never invinted anyone to her birthday celebrating.

In middle school, I was that girl, who had no time for personal life, because she studied alot.

In high school, I was that girl, who never went to parties or school events.

I was weak. Not physically, but emotionally. Because I knew, if someone ever hurted me - I would never bite back, and the only thing I could do is to avoid.

Avoid at any cost.

I never noticed the changes in myself until when I went to college. I had to come out of my shell and when I did so, I felt strong.
And I thought, wow, girl, you did it, you became confident enough to find so many freinds, to go out, and basically live the life.

I never noticed how I lost my greatest ability - the power to forgive people and leave negativity behind. I lost my ability to feel, to be open to this world and people in it. I became even worse than those girls, because now I craved remorse for every pain I felt and anger, that ruined everything on my way, including myself.

I laugh at those who say that life is about becoming better than you are now. How come I upgraded myself, but it feels so wrong?

Life is about letting pain in and fighting it inside, because as long as you feel it, you are alive. As long as it aches, you will never make someone you love feel that pain. Because when you feel nothing, you no longer care how badly your actions affect people around you.

Life is about being that weak little girl, because that's when you are the strongest. xx

REVIEW: MaXFactor "False Lash Effect" mascara (in brown)

Here is the beauty product of the day and my number one mascara for fall and winter time. The packaging is pretty mysterious, if you ask me...too plain.

Now to why it made its way into my favorites list. I know a lot of girls want their mascara to give their lashes full dramatic effect, but in my case, I don't want my lashes to look false, instead I want to keep them as natural looking as possible by adding a little bit of volume or length. Before buying this one, I have been switching between Maybelline mascaras (and they seemed fine, if only they didn't show my already dark eyelashes so black and didn't get dry so quick), but
then I thought "time to try something else, girl" and my choice was picking brown mascara instead of black.
I searched high and low, through so many "affordable" brands until I came across this one, pretty much the only brown mascara I found. I've never used anything from MaxFactor brand before, and I was kind of scared to give this one a try, but since the first time I used it - I fell in love.
This one lasted for 6-7 months until it got dry and there wasn't much of a product left, since I used only this mascara on my eyelashes, usually in 2 coats. It does give volume (I loved the thick plastic brush), but somehow manages to give me much required "I did not put 4 coats of mascara to achieve this volume and definition" look, which I think is great for when you are wearing a natural makeup look, or even for those, who don't really like using mascara at all.

It really does give full natural looking eyelashes effect, as stated on the packaging.

So far, 9/10.

ANTI ADVICES: How to make people hate you

1.Talk about yourself. Seriously, whatever the conversation is about, just try to turn it into a monologue about your precious life, and if you fail at changing the topic, just stop talking about whatever you and your opponent were discussing and start talking about your problems, like SURPRISE BET YOU DID NOT SEE THAT COMING.

2. Stop saying "thank you". They did something for you? Good pet, now kiss your queen's hand and get out of my sight. Always remember - the whole world owes you. Just like that.

3. Randomly stop connecting your friends in any way. If they ask what's wrong, just be like "Nothing", pull on a poker face and walk away like a boss.

4. If they find a way to tug you into any sort of communication, use the "nevermind" weapon.
You:I wanted to tell you something...
Friend:What is it?
You: Nevermind.

Use at least once a day, repeat if needed.

5. Spread rumours. No, it doesn't matter if gossips you pass on are true or false, so if anyone states that your sayings are false facts, be like "Well duh, I ain't a Wikipedia, bitch."

6. Flirt with your friends' crushes. Preferably in front of them.

7. If you have an iPhone, SHOW EVERYONE AND THEIR DOG THAT YOU HAVE IT.

8.  Always be sad or depressed, and try to wipe your depression all over the rest.

9. If someone tells you they like something, make sure they know that you HATE that thing.

10. "Forget" about your friend's birthday, and never send any birthday wishes.
Like seriously, why should I remember your birth date, you ain't my favorite celebrity or something.


(please note, this post is strictly for fun and laughs, do not follow these options, unless you truly want people to dislike you....because this stuff works, you know.) xx

10 weird facts about me

I feel like, me daring to write this post is a huge challenge, since I never seem comfortable talking about my life or revealing anything, which sometimes makes it difficult for me to communicate (thumbs up to all antisocial kids, I am with ya).

SO I have decided I should come out my comfort zone by using my blog, because you know...it's easier to confess to a stranger. So here it goes.

1. I have never been on a real date. 

Yeah, I realize, many people did not try it yet either, but the weird part of this one, is that I actually am sure I will never be on a date at all. Ever. AND I don't care enough.

2. I can't pass through the day without dark chocolate. I do not like any other sweets, any that don't have chocolate in them. 

No chocolate - no party.

3. I wake up every day around 8am, without an alarm clock.

4. I read about 2-4 books per week. And I prefer reading, rather than watching movies.

5. I would never write a fanfiction to a finished story, out of respect to the writer's choice of the book's finale.

6. I hate loud noises when I am tired, and the best way to rest for me is just sit in silence for about an hour.

7. I am hot-tempered, but if I get mad, chances are it will fade away within 24 hours. I just can't stay mad.

8. It is really easy to lose my trust.

9. I don't like wearing black+white, however, I love total white or black looks.

10. I wore heels only two times in my life - for graduation day and prom. Even though I like heels and wedges. Just NOT ON ME.

Fingers crossed, hoping, this did not frighten you too much and we will meet again for my next post, haha. Enjoy your day :) xx

Back To School: 5 MUSThaves for your wardrobe

Monday, dunday.
That's not even a word, but okay...
I felt like being a SuperGirl today aka giving out some weird fashion advices for those of you, girls, who still have no idea what their closet needs for this newish/upcoming school year.
I am in no way professional fashionista and this post is basically consisting of things I would LOVE to buy, if only some of them could be shipped to my country. (If you reach to this part and suddenly hear some ugly sobbing, then it's probably me, still not over this post). So here we go.

1. New shirt in jean or plaid material, new obsession of mine. So cool, and goes with literally anything. As an example, these ones:

     

2. High waist jeans. Yeah as much as I love high waist shorts trend, lets admit, you don't want to look ridiculous and get cold just for the sake of fashion when it gets less warm outside, so try this alternative for fall and winter:)

3. Backpack. Either colorful or faux leather, big, small, studded, they all look fun and there are so many variations, that you can pretty much find suitable backpack for any kind of outfit. Plus they are super comfy to carry around.

            

4. Boots. Because you never get enough shoe pairs, right.

5. Caps. I haven't been one of those, until they popping out in local stores here and I randomly decided to try one on. Surprisingly I liked the way these look on me, I think they add a sporty vibe, but can be used even with romantic style dress and such. Try a cap like this too, I am pretty sure, you will end up buying one.

        

So that's it for today, all pics connected to links of these products, if you fell in love with any of these pieces, all you need is a click. I hope, you enjoyed this post and got some inspiration to create new stylish looks for your first days/week of school.
Hashtag, You're Welcome.

(Oh my God, I should not be allowed to watch so many episodes of Awkward in one day, haha) xx

BOOK Review: "We were liars" by E. Lockhart

So here the book I recently finished reading (click on the pic to see what the hype is about). It is not so long, and I think I finished it in about 2 hours (fast reader much, eh?) and what can I say... I felt absolutely nothing /in the end/.
I mean, it's quite fine, really and you should probably read it if you are:

1) a fan of YA books with sad ends and unexpected plot twists;

2) a fan of Pretty Little Liars series, because somehow the main heroine and her family reminded me of Spencer Hastings and her lovely relatives.
Maybe it's just me, but let me know if you also found similarities between these?

3) you are tired of supernatural fictions and you just want to try out something more...normal and summerish.

To be honest, while I was reading this story, I felt like it was playing on my nerves. Balancing on the edge between "this story is amazing" and "this dumb thing annoys me and why am I even reading this". And as a result, all positive and negative points had faded into one - nothing.

I am not quite a "whatever" type of a person when it comes to the books I check out, 95% of time I am able to form a positive or negative opinion after reading a story, but this one... This one is something. So despite my mood, you should check this one out, as it's certainly not just an ordinary story of a teenager's screws ups.

I also seen people grumbling about weird narrator style of this book, but it did not bother me at all, though to each their own.

So, summing it all up, if I were to rate this one, for a nice plot and an attempt to bring me to tears with shocking finale chapters (minus poorly written characters, which did not gain my sympathy much) - 6/10.